Monday, January 25, 2010 aLLy ChAi ♥ 9:38 PM
I just found out that, my blog is just no longer mine. I can't even express anything shit here. I just feel so unfair, and just feel so wronged. That is not my problem, but what I can do? I have to eat this shit into my stomach and keep it inside the heart and smiling with the fakey smile. I think, I should really stop to tell out in my lovely blog, it is just like my diary, but this diary will have comment from others, and teasing, and whatever shit that hurt peoples. what the hell? It look like is my problem, I really don't even know what the shit thing happening. Ahha! That's really funny.aLLy ChAi ♥
Sunday, January 24, 2010 aLLy ChAi ♥ 1:56 PM
I'm so lazy to do my homeword D;aLLy ChAi ♥
aLLy ChAi ♥ 1:51 PM
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Friday, January 22, 2010 aLLy ChAi ♥ 8:24 PM
Things keep inside the heart is stressful and tiring. Don't try to understand what I mean and what I wrote, I'm talking alien language, you won't understand even though there is alphabet ABCDE.
I'm trying to describe my feeling, but I don't know how should I express. Fine, just use back the format that I used to blog always. Hmm, today, I was not good enough for forcing myself not to look and see, because I told myself, there's no doubt, there's no place for me to stay, so I really hope that I can reach my target to forget. Although my heart will skip while when I saw, but I did try my best not to bother, I have to do back myself, I don't want to leave in the endless room anymore. So, well, I need time of course. Sides, I think I can die tomorrow, because of the karangan, essays, add-maths, and so-on. And, I'm here to blog but not doing homework. -,- Try my best to leave my computer. LOL.
I love him but i cannot show it, want him but he cannot know it, need him but I know it'll never be, if only he needed me.aLLy ChAi ♥
Thursday, January 21, 2010 aLLy ChAi ♥ 9:41 PM
Oh, SO told me the truth in his phone, Oh how sad, and I realize that I shouldn't be so stubborn, I should drag myself out from this, isn't it?
I thought that I feel warm enough after leaving the so-called-fridge because of my fellow friends, true friends, and best friends. And what I realize I didn't even step out from the so-called-fridge, and I'm tuning the temperature to even cooler by now. I thought I can maybe tune it to warmer, so that I can afford the temperature once I step out from the so-called-fridge, but someone locked me inside the so-called-fridge and tell other friends that I'm a bitch that lock myself in the so-called-fridge. I can feel that how my heart broken into pieces and it's so painful that no one can imagine, because the someone is my friend that I used to share secrets everyday.
Just want to remind one thing, things doesn't mean anyone always, don't think so much, don't ever thought that I'm saying anyone, anyone is not a mind-reader, anyone can't read my mind, don't discuss, I'm not saying you, I just don't want any misunderstood again.aLLy ChAi ♥
Wednesday, January 20, 2010 aLLy ChAi ♥ 10:37 PM
As what Enz said :"情人眼里出西施". Okay Okay, I admit it, haha. I knew he is not that handsome as you're think but for me, it's actually enough larh haha wtf. I want I want I want to hug him ;DDDDDD lmao. Haha. Sides, I didn't complete any of my home works, so, tomorrow have to rush rush and rush again before the teachers come in. Ooowh and the add maths and the modern maths, omg, I didn't touch any of them yet. Perhaps I'll be kill by Mr. Tee tomorrow? For the record of blue card and sistem pemotongan markah. Oooooh God!
Not to forget that, I meet a person who really disgusting. I still can't imagine how the disgust he have. OMG. Ewwwww!! He keep asking me to believe him and whatever shit but, come on, so disgust, how I believe in? -,- Fcuk off larh.
aLLy ChAi ♥
Tuesday, January 19, 2010 aLLy ChAi ♥ 10:16 PM
Sometimes, things doesn't mean you always ;D
I'm glad to hear that from you.
aLLy ChAi ♥
Monday, January 18, 2010 aLLy ChAi ♥ 3:18 PM
What's the problem? How will I know if you don't tell me? Don't think that I'm genuine. I can't read your mind. Don't piss me off.
Want to know the reason? Because you IGNORED me.
aLLy ChAi ♥
aLLy ChAi ♥ 3:12 PM
Stop being looking down on people, bitch. FUCK off please.aLLy ChAi ♥
Saturday, January 16, 2010 aLLy ChAi ♥ 4:49 PM
Finally, Chong Jia En is back. LOL.
Update tonight ;D
aLLy ChAi ♥
Thursday, January 14, 2010 aLLy ChAi ♥ 3:10 PM
Today should be the last day le barh, welcome back then ;D
Today Joey said that, I look so concentrate in class and YES, I'M. I'm always do till now kay. Haha. But Quince claimed that that's because Enz not with me. She said that I must be lazy after Enz back. Hopefully not. Haha. I don't hope I skip those classes. Haha. Enz must be tough after she back from Korea, because have to brush up on home works and subjects! Oh oh and and, I'm waiting Enz's souvenir! Haha. Sides, there's not much to say about today. Tomorrow is Hari Gerko, I'm guarantee it will be a bored day.
You don't look sick too.It's time to edit my blog !
aLLy ChAi ♥
aLLy ChAi ♥ 12:26 AM
Post #150 ;DD
Ran around the field with Quince today since we said we wanted to practice for merentas desa, cool right? Haha. But the fied was really disgusting with muddy and Ning said that got worms and bla bla bla whatever shit larh that I scare so much. OMG. Then, Oh, today's words is "wo hen sien arh." Haha. WoonYin suggested me tomorrow say "ni hen sha", so, I'll try it larh ;D I thought he was absent but Shaun told me he is not. And, erm, what else? And Enz, you should give up him. and and and. Argh Idk larh. This is just a rough update with 5minute typing, haha wtf.
Get well soon if you are sick.
Reason why I asked you not to like me is I don't like the way you talk to me, it was like you want me to obey your impose. And, your reply is so damn fucking look down on people. I'm serious. Just, GIVE UP. OMFG. You are annoying, jerk.
aLLy ChAi ♥
Tuesday, January 12, 2010 aLLy ChAi ♥ 11:16 PM
2nd day without her ! Awwww, miss her larh. I'm getting bored and lazy in my class, no more "wo hen wu liao arh" but "walao, ta hen chao leh!" Haha. I found that my class bendahari is very talkative. OMG, they are just keep laughing and talk loudly. Irritating larh. Wow, Pn.Choo's speaking really "awesome". Her saliva flying here and there and I have to wash my face after her period, why? Because her saliva almost cover up my face. OMG. Can't imagine larh. Math teacher Mr. Tee was also -.-' 1 point, he can repeat it a lot of times, but it cause me to finish his homework during his period, because he is tooo slow. Well, I'm busy, can't think any events larh, but I marked down for Enz, haha. She must be happy in Korea D; I miss her, because I have too much words want to tell her. LOL.aLLy ChAi ♥
Monday, January 11, 2010 aLLy ChAi ♥ 3:20 PM
You want me to do you not as friend, so I did and do you as stranger. That's what you want, isn't it?
By the time right now, Enz should be playing snow, or whatever in Korea D; I'm so bored in the class so that I just keep crapping and say :" wo hen wu liao arh." LOL. Sides, I pay my attention to teacher instead of looking here and there, and there's no meaning if I do that. All of these is because of Enz! Say thank you to me when you see this, fast fast! Haha. Because I need to mark down homework and teach her homework when she's back from Korea! Yay me, proud to have me? lol wtf. Quince was super slow today, and she's late to school, En. Lean's car is infront of her, means, En.Lean also late larh, lol wtf. Quince said he quickly ran down from his car and did announcement. LOL. Enz, I didn't saw him D; LOL paiseh. I'm so effin hate his lanc. OMG, like very yeng or geng like that. I was keep mentioning his lanc today because I'm so effin hate his behaviour. LOLOL. When you see him, you will know why I say like that larh. LOL. Sides, walao, I'm so damn miss ChongJiaEn, that's all ;DD
I think maybe is because of his back, not his personality ;D
*Marking down events in case forgotten tell Enz!
aLLy ChAi ♥
Sunday, January 10, 2010 aLLy ChAi ♥ 8:55 PM
Just ate medicine after dinner, friends and family was like : Finally you eat medicine ;D LOL, and oh, white wine no more D; Continue with my coffee liqueur. I know being a alcoholic wasn't good but yet, I'm quite addicted to it. Feeling so extremely dizzy, hope tomorrow can cure larh. No JiaEnz with me, very hard to take care myself in the class D; Oh no.. What I seeing is just moving, really dizzy enough for me. Dinner not tasty enough because I can't even try the taste, dam it, luckily not abalone dinner, haha wtf. JiaEnz should be in the airport now, with the flight 12am. LOL, she is going to Korea, asked her to bring me snow that impossible, haha wtf. Well, Signing off, ;DaLLy ChAi ♥
aLLy ChAi ♥ 10:37 AM
Owwh, I can't sleep very well, and my eye are obviously panda-eye. How sad D; Dreams were act in my mind, and I woke up non-stop. Woke up in the morning with JiaEnz question questions msg, how cute haha. ;D Staying in the darkness own self, there is no any of the brightness, cooling weather were turning around. I even wore my jacket but I still felt cold. Suddenly I realize, I'm sweating yet I'm cold like in the hell, and yes, I'm sick. Obviously, don't you think so? No more being alcoholics anymore for this week, It hurt my stomach and produce gastric acid which will make me suffer. Cough, yah, I hate it. Flu, eww, hate than cough. Can't play Canon in D well with my dizzy mind. Hoping my sick will be cure within today ;D That's possible haha. Well, Signing off, loves your all, my bestfren!aLLy ChAi ♥
Saturday, January 9, 2010 aLLy ChAi ♥ 11:34 PM
I'm not a princess ♥ Its ain't a fairytale.aLLy ChAi ♥
aLLy ChAi ♥ 11:10 PM
What I thought, was so true. It is a fact and nobody can change it. Friends comforted me as well, and I love them. Joey did something very funny to me, with whole brain question marks. JiaEnz did nothing to me, maybe she slept, LOL wtf. Quince lol, reply me with rough words, love her so much. ShaunOon is just crapping and console larh. LOLOL. Think widely, don't cry because it's over, smile because its happened. But I didn't really thought that, friendship will gone, but that's actually what I expected. Suddenly, I found out that I'm tired, and I'm so dizzy right now. Alcohol is my best friend, I can't lose it since January started. I don't drunk, what happen? LOL. It's let me to be as wise as an owl. Tears doesn't pass trough my face, although heartache just like hell, dizzy just like I'm in heaven, 123456789 pops in my mind, tired just like bone broke down, walking just like soul gone, smiling just like a clown with a super big fake smile, fingers giggling like skeleton, feeling vomit and went into toilet just like a jerk, silent as a bastard, crapping with LOL like a nerd. LOL LOL wtf. This is the second time, and I'll really do my best. Thanks for telling me my problems and I guess you will read my blog ;D
aLLy ChAi ♥
Thursday, January 7, 2010 aLLy ChAi ♥ 9:55 PM
Boo the school! My class been no electricity for almost whole day today. We had change our class with 4P6, that's located under the pejabat, and 4P6 change to class between form 6 I think. LOL. But don't really satisfied, because the table is not big enough for my books, and not high enough for us, and and and, the class is so small. But positive part is, my class is nearer to Quince's class! So that we can meet easily, and no need run here run there instead. Some more can go her class if the time approve me to do that ;D Account teacher Pn. Choo, was so ridiculous, her speaking speed was extremely fast and we couldn't catch what the hell she is teaching, so soon, we finish the first section. Oh, not forget that, her words are soooo ugly and small! People who sit behind can't even read what she wrote on the board. Add maths was still okay, because just the first chapter, teacher haven get details into it. He should make it more interesting, jia en say hear him teaching is sooo sleepy ;D Hahah, I can't pay fully attention today because my class is sooooo near you know I know larh, head keep on turn and turn and search and search, perhaps the window should close it. haha! But I'm still very behave, I got listen to teacher that what I should listen larh ;DD Lot teachers went out class and search for 4P6, we mention that there are above the science lab but 1 of the teacher didn't got it, he wanted to go 4P4 to search for 4P6, luckily enz and I wanted to go toilet so we rush to the teacher and stop him going up and waste his energy, LOL. He was so headache because all of his class shift place, LOL. He repeated those class for almost 5 times and finally he got it correct and we just keep smiling and actually laughing, hahahaha. LOL. Well, homework is a bit look like high hill. Form 4 student now is study like MAD. Form 4 will be a tough year but will be easier in Form 5 if we manage to understand. Well, I still have lot ta homework need to go-on. Dictionary with the China history, Add maths, read Sejarah and so-on. So so so, have to head off. Hahah!
Awww, I miss him lerh! Argh, I'm serious Okay? I really very miss him.aLLy ChAi ♥
Wednesday, January 6, 2010 aLLy ChAi ♥ 6:31 PM
走在人挤人的走道 我问了自已
没有爱情的人是否会长命
那些电影常常让人感觉甜蜜
但是我不相信
坐在没有人的角落 我又问自已
究竟应该继续 还是该放弃
没有人能了解我 现在的心情
想看你 想躲你 难以决定
每当我想靠近 你总会装冷静
眼看你的表情 仿佛已经说明
我只想要证明 我们这段爱情
也许在你眼里 它只是个游戏
我只想要靠近 也很想要抱紧
会想到那过去 和现在新的你
我还想要参与 你的生活点滴
只要你肯相信
我一定会陪你走下去
坐在没有人的角落 我又问自已
究竟应该继续 还是该放弃
没有人能了解我 现在的心情
想看你 想躲你 难以决定
每当我想靠近 你总会装冷静
眼看你的表情 仿佛已经说明
我只想要证明 我们这段爱情
也许在你眼里 它只是个游戏
我只想要靠近 也很想要抱紧
会想到那过去 和现在新的你
我还想要参与 你的生活点滴
只要你肯相信
我一定会陪你走下去
能不能够让我 再说我爱你
还是你已不想听
能不能够把你 彻底的忘记
我是真的搞不清
每当我想靠近 你总会装冷静
眼看你的表情 仿佛已经说明
我只想要证明 我们这段爱情
也许在你眼里 它只是个游戏
我只想要靠近 也很想要抱紧
会想到那过去 和现在新的你
我还想要参与 你的生活点滴
只要你肯相信
我一定会陪你走下去
只要你再相信
我们会轻轻地靠在一起
aLLy ChAi ♥
Tuesday, January 5, 2010 aLLy ChAi ♥ 11:14 PM
当你真正爱一样东西的时候你就会发现语言多么的脆弱和无力，文字与感觉永远有隔阂。
我爱你，比以前要来得多。多得不知道如何形容了。aLLy ChAi ♥
Monday, January 4, 2010 aLLy ChAi ♥ 10:38 PM
Awwwwww.. Appeal Appeal Appeal!!aLLy ChAi ♥
aLLy ChAi ♥ 5:39 AM
School Time !I'm so lucky I can wake up in the morning.Hahaha wtf.
aLLy ChAi ♥
Sunday, January 3, 2010 aLLy ChAi ♥ 7:11 PM
为什么我在逃避我想要的愿望？害怕再一次的受伤吗？我不明白。aLLy ChAi ♥
aLLy ChAi ♥ 5:52 PM
Well, I'm 4P3. WTF WTF.aLLy ChAi ♥
aLLy ChAi ♥ 5:49 PM
原来我们的友谊，用超厉害的显微镜都看不到。我鄙视你的性格，做作，语气。跟你聊天，我就好像玩偶似的，任你摆弄。哼！原来朋友的话，是要相信的。不能太过于相信你，这是真的。aLLy ChAi ♥
aLLy ChAi ♥ 11:12 AM
早上醒来的第一件事，就是按电话，没看到，有点失落。站到镜子前，缓缓看着自己，看到眼神里藏子一丝疲惫，整夜睡不着的眼睛，有稍微的肿胀。我该不该联络他呢？有人说，别过于相信他，这让我觉得害怕。我觉得好矛盾，想他又不找他，我到底在搞什么啊？唉。aLLy ChAi ♥
aLLy ChAi ♥ 5:07 AM
爱一个人，不一定要和他在一起，不 一定要对他说“我爱你”。虽然很爱他，很想他，想拥抱，想了解，但默默地藏在心里，不好么？为什么要坦白地告诉他，还要担心被拒绝，甚至，被挑剔…… 这 样，心不是更痛么？我曾经很大胆地告诉他，我喜欢他，但现在感觉却很怪异，我变了。不知何时何地，甜言蜜语从我身上消失，连最简单的感觉，都不知如何诉 说…… 我再也不是以前的我，你要求的，我负荷不了…… 自从分手那天，我就变了，变了不再是讨好别人的人，宁愿沉默也不愿辩解…… 算了吧！我好爱你，但是我还是选择，沉默吧！静静地看着你去寻找一个更好的，不是更好吗？告诉我吧！
人，不一定要甜言蜜语才能让对方知道心里想的是什么。甜言蜜语，是会听腻的。有些人，不会诉说感情，就是不会，而不是发自内心。他们选择了把所有的话语，藏在心里，想必是受过很大的创伤吧！藏在心里的爱，也许好过口中说的“我爱你”。
我承认我在逃避，我面对不了我的问题。朋友说，是面对自己的时候了，但是我没有那种力量。我受不了这种刺激。
喜欢你，这么难吗？我们就不能像以前那样了吗？
对不起，我想静一静。aLLy ChAi ♥
Saturday, January 2, 2010 aLLy ChAi ♥ 6:31 PM
Just a small update.Happy Birthday to sister ;D I Love You ♥Erm, Have to go school on Monday, so bored. Everything changed. And I'm sure I can't wake up in the early morning. Zzzz, sleepy larh. Went for wedding dinner last night, dinner end up with 2 weird uncle's karaoke. OMG, that's really irritating, they sang till everybody also feeling vomit. OMG! Borrow my mum's phone since my phone dead with lacking out of battery. My whole family feeling so tired during the dinner because we been paint and clean up the room for 5hours. Just don't feel like schooling. Argh.So, please tell me, this is a good beginning or what?
aLLy ChAi ♥
