Friday, October 30, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 4:12 PM
It had been sometime didn't update my blog again. Friends will attend Fright Night tonight. So hope I can attend. My brain is blank, I don't know what I want to type out -__- Today's event is expected, but why I'm afraid. The third person in my life. Whatever...
我一直都不敢相信今天发生的一切，但是你的气息总缠绕在我的脸上，让我不得不相信。虽然，这已经是在预料之中的了……
aLLy ChAi ♥
Tuesday, October 27, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 5:24 PM
Saturday.
Skipped morning pasar but went seapark to ate breakfast. Saw a form4 CHS male student working in the restaurant. Went Teluk Intan at 5pm and overnight there. Ate alot of supper that gain me fatter. -___- And the room that provided to us, is very dusty.Sunday.
Wake up in the early morning and went Bagan Datoh. To fish prawns and some fishs. Wheee ^^ I'm the winner vs 4 of us. I got 9prawns and a fish. Brotha got 8prawns. Dad got 8prawns and a crab. Mum got 4prawns only : ( Almost got sunburn although I applied sun oil for myself. Haihx. Blacken my skin again.Monday.Skipped skul! Addicted to stories in net. I feels like I'm the person in the story. Lol. Story is 'gen jiong' since it was a ghost story.Tuesday.You was standing infront of me, but I can't see. I was finding you, but I can't search you. Peoples said, we had passed by but I too didn't saw you, really. We have no fate. Went to Petrosains. Had some funs inside, played something that no other peoples know XD I'm special. That was sliding ladder. Teacher asked us gather at 12pm @ outside of Petrosains. So, we rushed a snack plate @ KFC as our brunch then rushed to gather. Details in later post XDaLLy ChAi ♥
Saturday, October 24, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 11:44 AM
Yesterday.
He treated me as well as you said so. You jealous him. I told him. Sitting with him at somewhere that you and I been there. Chatted all craps with him and story related to you and I. He holded my hand but I didn't escape. I'm
not a good girl.
Went
Beryl's Chocolate Factory yesterday. 5minute watching the video and 5minute looking at the cocoa powder, chocolate and their packing and 5minute watch them doing their work as packing, moulding, and whatever and our journey is almost end. Went out from the factory and bought some chocolate as my mum asked me to buy for her, especially is the
Tiramisu chocolate. XD Then, went back to school. Spent my time with him after I reached school. Will head to
Bagan Datuk later to fish some prawns since my dad love to fishing so much. I just go there to accompany my mum and my brother will accompany me.
I hope he was onlining or he sms me. I wanted to ask him something.
He told me about you. Why is everybody I love before also..
smoking?
Smoking is really that good? Hah!
LMAO!
aLLy ChAi ♥
Thursday, October 22, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 10:09 PM
He love someone else! I'm just trying to ignore it. He is not my lover anymore but maybe stranger.
Sam, I'm so sorry I can't accept you. Please leave me alone, I don't mean to hurt you anyway. Just be friends is better. I won't love you, don't call me.
Skipped school for two days, finally will head to school tomorrow. Just because I had sign up to visit Beryl Chocolate Factory. Abit regretted since I'm really too lazy. I was thinking should I present you a present when the time you birthday since, I love you before. But after he told me your things, I decided, maybe a sms to wish you, is already enough. Somemore, you are going to have another girl with you, maybe happily. So I shouldn't disturb the couple.
aLLy ChAi ♥
Wednesday, October 21, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 5:29 PM
其实有很多的男孩都不知道，女孩在冲男孩发火之后不断的哭泣。其实有很多的男孩都不知道，女孩是从来不会真正去生男孩的气。那都是因为女孩是真的很喜欢男孩，在乎男孩。其实有很多的男孩都不知道，女孩只对自己喜欢的男孩唠唠叨叨。其实有很多的男孩都不知道，女孩只会对自己喜欢的男孩耍性子。男孩要知道，要是女孩不喜欢男孩，女孩根本不会在乎男孩，关心男孩，生怕男孩做错事情似的。男孩要知道，要是女孩不喜欢男孩，女孩根本不会对男孩发火，不会撒娇，让男孩哄女孩。在别人面前，女孩都会是淑女。 男孩要知道，要是女孩不喜欢男孩，男孩根本就没有本事让女孩哭泣！即使女孩真的生气了，也绝对不会超过第二天。这一切的一切，全都是因为女孩太喜欢男孩，而这一切，也因为男孩还不够在意女孩，不了解女孩。于是，男孩和女孩总是争吵。男孩认为女孩的脾气不好，女孩认为男孩不够迁就女孩。于是，男孩和女孩总是冷战。男孩认为女孩不喜欢男孩，女孩认为男孩不在意女孩。于是，男孩和女孩总是错过彼此。也许，擦身而过，本身就是一种悲伤的无奈与幸福。想必知道，凄美依然是美，并且美得绚丽，美得悲伤，而沧桑。因为女孩喜欢男孩，所以女孩偶尔会向男孩发火。因为女孩喜欢男孩，所以女孩会时常向男孩撒娇。因为女孩喜欢男孩，所以女孩才会生男孩的气，因为女孩喜欢男孩，所以女孩才不会气那么久。男孩可知道？每个女孩的心，都是水晶做的，晶莹剔透。但是女孩的心，却很容易一碰即伤，也很容易摔碎。男孩可知道？每个女孩的心，都是不设防的。男孩那么容易闯进女孩的心，但是却狠心在走的时候，留下无限的伤害！女孩从来都不知道，这个世界上，根本没有值得让女孩哭泣的男孩，因为真正值得让女孩哭的男孩，根本就不舍得让女孩哭泣。女孩会很矜持；会很骄傲；会很冷淡。女孩嘴里总会要男孩走开，但女孩的心里却总是叫男孩留下。男孩了解女孩吗？请男孩张开男孩的耳朵；请男孩打开男孩的心灵；去听听女孩心里真正的呼唤，而不是女孩的口是心非。女孩总是会看着男孩转身，才会带着破碎的心离去。男孩总是看不到，女孩与男孩的侧身而过时候，滂沱在心里的泪。如果男孩喜欢女孩，请男孩多陪女孩；如果男孩喜欢女孩，请男孩多宠女孩；如果男孩喜欢女孩，请男孩多让女孩；如果男孩喜欢女孩，请男孩多听听女孩心里的呐喊 —— 请拥抱女孩。在爱情领域里，男孩女孩总是彼此伤害，仿佛这样才是爱的轰轰烈烈。爱情领域里，总是没有谁对谁错；爱情领域里，没有你爱我较多，我爱你较少；男孩爱女孩，女孩爱男孩，彼此就该满足了。不要试图让彼此受到伤害，让彼此更加脆弱悲伤。男孩女孩彼此相爱，需要的是温暖，幸福，甜蜜与快乐，而不是伤害！不要用沉默来宣战，不要互不相让，不要不理不睬，更加不要什么话都不讲就冷漠的离去！要知道，一方离去的时候，另一方的眼角却泛着泪光。越是安静，战火越是深，这是冷战，也是属于彼此的伤害。无论伤口要怎么复合，曾经存在，就难以抹去。请男孩给予女孩一个拥抱，用男孩的拥抱，去化解女孩心里的悲伤，以及眼角的泪水。要是女孩喜欢男孩，女孩绝对不会拒绝男孩的拥抱。女孩只会害怕男孩的冷漠转身，男孩的无声安静。请记住，相爱的人，就不要轻易宣战，因为冷战带来的伤害，超出你的预计。请记住，只要你喜欢他，没有什么是你接受不了的。只要喜欢他，就能接受他的一切，他的毛病。在男孩眼里，女孩的坏脾气与毛病，都是撒娇。女孩喜欢男孩，需要的不是男孩真的转身，女孩说的也总不是真心话。女孩只是想要男孩宠女孩，想男孩抱女孩，哪怕……没有一点的道歉……@Hotmail ; chong jia en.
Edited by Ally.
The first time, I'm not thinking him but another him while I'm still typing this words. But this let me knew that, he had replace him in my heart. However, I still have to suffer with pains. Because, I think I still love him.....
aLLy ChAi ♥
Tuesday, October 20, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 5:37 PM
School is bored till you can't imagine at all. I didn't know that, there are none of a proper classes to let us stay into. I told mum yesterday, she asked me next time don't go school dyh. Waste time saje. Woots, I'm so lucky :) Slept an hour in the library then being a statue outside the library whole day. Sometimes, being alone and blank the mind is better than you are with somebody. You won't be thinking something happy or unhappy when you really blank out your mind. I do love the time when I'm being a statue because none of the stupid unhappy things popping out to disturb my mind. And I won't feeling cold or hot because my heart wasn't there. Waikit came and chatted with me till school dismiss. I realize someone is getting bad, but I can't care it, because we are speechless. I feel so nothing when he told me his things, because what I can feel? I don't even know. I don't know what he is thinking, so just ignore. I was black out when I woke up from the sofa and went to the kitchen. I was leaning the wall and place my head down. Everything I saw was black, and blurry. Mum's face turns red to yellow, yellow to white, white to blue, blue to green, green to orange then turn back to red. She was so worried about my actions. But I told her, I'm nothing just maybe blood pressure is low. I don't know did I bluffed her. Hopefully not. My piano practical is failed, left 3 marks to pass grade 5. Decided to skip grade 5, straight go grade 6 in year 2011, still considering how should I tell mama my grade 5 pracftical is failed -_- any suggestion? Lols. Still feeling black out, no ones knows that :(The 4th day skip medicine, total 16 tablets is waiting for me.aLLy ChAi ♥
Monday, October 19, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 4:56 PM
I feel so excited when you texted me, but I din realize I was smiling when I holding the phone and looking at it in hospital. Then my mum was asking me:Mum: Sum ah, what happen to you? Why are you keep smiling with your handphone? Who texted you uh?
Ally: Ah huh? Where got smile worh, ma.. you must wear spec le larrr..
Lols. Anyway, I didn't mean to react like that, although you said you don't mind, but I still wanted to say Sorry.
Went Assunta Hospital today. After that, slept for three hours again in my room. Oh no, must go out jogging, or else really become fatty girl -___- I was so happy with my new computer, Hah! Everything run fast and clear, hopefully my sister don't make dirty the table again, and the monitor and also don't download rubbish. 20inches screen, woohoo, my dream for now. I wish I can buy a laptop after my earning, but it is kinda waste, so postpone this dream (: 
And my wall ^^
Helped my lovely doggy bell cut it fur. Ohmygod, my brotha cut it head into diamond shape -.-' After cut all the excess fur, it become ET -.-' Ish, banyak ugly lorh. But abit look like chiwawa ^^ And my dad love it very much. Hah. Head to school tomorrow.
I had been 3 days din eat medicine, there are 12 tablets waiting for me ):
aLLy ChAi ♥
Saturday, October 17, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 10:08 PM
The old pic, I can't find any smile pic :(The shifts of Fortune test the reliability of friends.
I realize I'm actually quite lack of smiley photos. Maybe because this whole year I didn't happy before? My new computer is reached yesterday. Busying shifting all files and kind of rubbish to my new computer, updates my computer from yesterday till just now, restarted my computer plenty times. Finally, I'm free to update my blog now. Went to summit yesterday, shopped around and bought some finger nail polish with Nat Nat, bought an outing handbag, and a cross stitch because kinda bored in school and house, so decided to work with some kids games. hah! Bought a wall sticker too, sticked on the wall, luckily mine is nicer than brotha's! Went to my dad's Indian friend's house, ate their Deepavali food, quite delicious but I prefer mum's cook. Hah! Not spicy enough, chicken some is quite soft, mutton quite nice, the vege is abit over cooked. Mmm.. I still prefer mum's. I'm still wondering should I go school Tuesday? Anyone give suggestions to me? Haihs. I'm lack of happiness, anyone can fulfill it?
aLLy ChAi ♥
Thursday, October 15, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 7:16 PM
I purse up my lips, let my tears run over my eyes, turning around but did not let it dropped. I don't want to drop my tears in front of you. I holding a small lock, and a key, walk towards my heart. I used the lock, to lock my bloody big hole heart, with the key. But few days later, the lock dropped and lost. The lock left a heart message to me, it wrote to me said it couldn't help me to lock my bloody big hole heart, because it is too big for the small lock, it asked me to use a bigger size lock to lock my heart. So, I used my tears to buy a bigger lock, to prevent my heartache. But few days later, the lock disappear and left a message to my heart again, it said, it couldn't help me to lock my heart, because it is getting bigger and more bloody. It left a suggestion to me, put my heart into the refrigerator, let it solidify. It says because even a bigger or biggest lock, also can't help me to lock my bloody pieces heart, but this suggestion is the most suffering suggestion, it may use my tears everyday to decrease and increase my suffer. Should I or shouldn't I keep my heart into refrigerator, using the fake smile everyday, suffering the whole day, cry every mid-night? I'm trying to make chances every time I sees you, but you are escaping every time, and at the end, I escape myself from the chances I made myself. Because my heartache is telling me that, don't even hurt yourself again, love is just an excuse to get hurt!aLLy ChAi ♥
Wednesday, October 14, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 9:51 PM
Celebrate your smallest accomplishments.
There are really super bored in school! But students as hardworking as me, as well-behavior as me, of course will attend school as usual and to returned my SPBT books. *okay, i know I'm kinda ss-ing.* Walking around the school and finally went to library with ChongJiaEn and WongXinNing, stayed there till 5minute before recess and we chatted what course and what job we wanted to do with. Hah! Chit-chated in class with friends, and wasted our time. ish. Scream my voice out with playing Counter Strike. Brotha used knife to killed me! I don't even know he is standing behind me -.-' Headache after screaming and finally slept till dinner time. I wanted to shop around with buddies, outing and skip school!
Ally: Mama! Next time if school don't have any special activity, I don't want to go school jor! Bored like hell eh! Wasted my time there with doing nothing.
Mama: Harh? Your school let or not?
Ally: Harh? Don't care larh, let de lah, everybody was skipping school lorh!
Mama: You like larh, but don't later your school called me tell me you skip school.
Ally: Really arh?
Mama: You think yourself larh. I don't care you larh.
Woots! Mama was different today! ♥ Hah! Ohyah, any readers or whoever, please remember knife is a dangerous item. Don't play fool around with it. Because I almost slice my thumb down while I'm sclicing the ginger and I almost chop my finger down when I chopping the meat. -.-' Lucky me. XD
aLLy ChAi ♥
Wednesday, October 7, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 12:59 PM
100th post!
Tuesday 13/10/2009As the purse is emptied the heart is filled.
They suggested me to give up. So, I think I should since you won't like me, hah! I must learn to be positive ♥ scream out loudly, PMR is over! ♥ Although I won't do that. Have to find out where is my 15text books later, wondering did I dumped it into dust bin? Haihs, tomorrow have to bring that much books go school, den bring my empty bag home, feeling weird. KH and BC seems okay for me, slept alot today, because I have free time and I don't wanna check the paper again. Shares alot with buddies these days, I really ♥ it ^^ Stories can't stop run into my memories, turning around and shares the opinion together. Library was like a morning neither night market in this PMR week. Most of us went in is just for the air-cond, because we can't even pay any attention on the words with books. 1minute before invigilator collected the papers, other classes is shouting and screaming, they are celebrating. Teacher felt happy for us too, they smiled and laugh, seems we are childish! P/s, They are brave, why couldn't I?Monday 12/10/2009You will step on the soil of many countries.Hah! I hate today but ♥ today too. we walked so near :) Chatted with buddies and it cause me to forgot about my history! But missed these times, we had been long long time didn't chat so happily and stories since last year. The current AllyChai is almost no secrets with both of you, kays! Heys, don't even suspect me huh! Bought chocolate last minute today @ 7eleven for my buddies ChongJiaEn's birthday. Paiseh lah, I knew the present is terrible, but I wish we could hang out asap. Fyi, i'm the 1st who wished her, whahah! Slept in super mid-night yesterday, with the fragrant, to calm down myself and to wished her. Did super badly for my History, I really hate History anyway, hope I could at least pass my history! And math, it is terrible easy, till you couldn't imagine and believed it. Whoever can't get an A for it, there must be something wrong, maybe coloured the wrong answer.Brotha cooked me instant mee when I reached home, I knew instant mee is not healthy but I'm super hungry and my gastric is getting worst, but I'm always shows that I'm strong. Hah, this is me. Tomorrow is the last day, Kh with Bc, lets scream together after this! Woohoo!!! aiks, wait, still got 1 more day, scream tomorrow -.-'
Sunday 11/10/2009A kind word will keep someone warm for years.
Slept in the gloomy and silent mid-night. Think of a lot of things. The time we had last year; the words you told me when you are angry; the bad words you shouted at me, you wrote for me; the words we chatted which I kept. Felt so depressed, lonely. But once I wanted to drag me out of that, I'll though I very hate you, so that I could only sleep in the mid-night. Swollen eyes shown up often on my face. I miss you, that is what I could say. I wished I'm there today, so that I could saw you there, but I have to study with my books. I knew you went there. I'm hoping my brother could dropped me when I passed-by. Maybe we can gain better than now. Nah, went to sunway pyramid, to refund my brother's weight balance, bought books for last minute revise and bought fragrant for mum. Rushed back home to study, or else I might be in Hospital because my mum had chopped me into pieces! hah. I can't wait till Tuesday!
Saturday 10/10/2009Your spirit is awake, powerful and full of light.
Went to Giant yesterday and found your name. Fascinating And Brilliant In Anything New. Just a force to make me found your name, but my name ain't there. Work hard today in house. Doing mathematics all the times. Figured out how to do Expression, Factorisation, Linear Equations, and Inequalities! Anyway, thanks to ShaunOnn for teaching me. hah! Will study Kh later and my Bc! Suddenly saw you online in the afternoon, my mood suddenly got better. Hah ♥ Always thought that the time last time we had. Hah. Watched drag me to hell yesterday via PPS. Not that scary I think. Lols. Realise I hurt my left leg muscle during my exam, and a little part of me near my hand was in slightly blueblack because I bang into the pillar in the 1st day of exam after school dismiss. :( Can't wait for Monday, but I can wait for the Sejarah Exam. Lols. I dislike Sejarah! I must get an A for Mathematics. Hah, wish me good luck! ♥
Friday 09/10/2009Ride a mule while looking for a horse.
I ♥ today, my day was made by him :) Friday, the third day of PMR. Just a Geography paper and we were released at 9.30am. Geography was bad enough for me, I don't even know the map, how I know the function of the states? Picked some answers and hang in my answer sheet. Ate an apple and a glass of yogurt drinks to fulfill my stomach until I woke up at 4pm.Hah! Quince, you been too clever in love larh, such a pro in love, hah, guess out everything without words from me. Sorry that didn't tell you and erm, you are not out-date larh. Monday must be a bad day, Mathematics and Sejarah, mathematics is still quite okay for me, but sejarah ain't good at all. I failed it every time in my exam. Brother will buy me some exercise book later, must work smarter and get better result for it. Wondering do guys work often? Their hand seems so smooth, I'm jealous.Hah, cause his hand is still so smooth :) I ♥ these days! He told me to do more exercise then can get better results :)
Thursday 08/10/2009Good things are being said about you.
Second day of exam. English 1 and English 2 with Science 1 and Science 2. English was easy, but easy questions will wrong more than the harder questions, wish that I have the luck to get it correct. Science paper 1 is unexpected easy, came out quite a number of questions that given tips by AndrewChoo tuition center. Paper 2 was hard, everybody were busying study electric topics because there are long time electric topics escaped from the exam papers. But at the end, paper 2 is none of any electric things. Wasted some time to studied it but disappointed me. Studied pollination, but just get used some in the exam paper. Screwed badly for Science anyway. Wish me good luck.Heh. Brought a bottle of "Chicken Essence" to school, drank before papers started. Today's invigilator was not as good as yesterday's teacher, she was keep on chit chatted with the Indian teacher who always be on us to checked us, and she even forgotten to told us that we can start our papers.Tsk , such an invigilator. We can play cheats in our exams because she is keep on looking at outside and waiting for the Indian teacher. Our yesterday's teacher went to our male student's class. Before last paper started, Quince n I were called by the Indian teacher to a classroom. It shocked me. Luckily they just wanted some candidates to testify the test paper is original and did not open yet. I felt I'm lucky because I have the chances to sign on the proven paper.Hah. Have not started do any revise on Geography for tomorrow's exam. Have to start it after dinner. Hah. P/s ♥ I had threw the letters into the suggestion box. And, sorry mama i bluffed you that I ate lunch as NasiLemak in skul but actually I didn't eat anything for my lunch :( Just a slice of bread lying inside my stomach as breakfast. Oh yah, Happy birthday to Issac Lim Ngee Hwee, such a poor guy, exam in PMR day, Tsk.Wednesday 07/10/2009Today is the tomorrow we worried about yesterday.
First day of PMR! Hah! BM was finished by today :) Anyway, screwed up for bm. Did badly larh. Had a nice day today, with happily mood, relax and unrelieved mood, without tiring, missing, and whatever. Chat and studied, mix and share, love it ♥ Paper 1, first 7 questions were still hard for me, next time I'm going to read up the whole dictionary before I step into the exam room. Paper 2, Rangsangan came out with kesesakan lalu lintas, Karangan came out with some rubbish, I don't even know what they are mentioning anyway, and Novel came out Persoalan. Hah. I'm regret that I just studied for the plot and missed up the persoalan. Simply chark out some stories, words and characters. There are no any questions related to semangat kejiranan but everybody was keep on studied on kejiranan, included me. hah! Keep smiling with teacher, hah! End with the last minute in the exam room. Packed and leaved. Previously is without missing him not until i saw his car, but I had overcome today. Congrats me. Prepare for tomorrow Bi and Science Exam. Good luck to me. P/s. A male student got caught hair today, Pn Joyce cut his fringe and sideburns before his exam, I dunno who is that but I told my parents, and they told me to write those details and they are going to write a suggestion letter to pass to the headmistress and the pihak PIBG, to complain our miss discipline teacher Pn Joyce who spoilt the male student's mood in the big PMR exam day. My parents is damn yeng ♥ right? hah! I ♥ them!aLLy ChAi ♥
Tuesday, October 6, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 10:25 PM
Okays, here is my 99th post, and I promise my 100th post will be after PMR. But this ain't a normal post, is a post that make me angry, sad, cry and bla bla bla..Okay, I really hate LOVE. It make me feel happy, cheerful, sad, tired, disappointed and alot more. I really don't know why I can't learn like Form1, ignored the secret admires, the loves one, and the one loves me. I'm just hate it. It hurt me. Hurt me badly.Previously, I was thinking I'm so alone, so miss him? and so blank. I asked you to wished me, yeah, you had wished, without blessing. What for I get a wishes that without blessing? I don't need it. After I got your message, I realize, why I love you? I shouldn't do that!I asked them, what you did. I'm so eager to know that, but now I think I'm something wrong, such a heartless person, I don't need to bother it right? I'm so hate that I put my heart on the relationship I have that time. It hurts me once more times. Love is just an excuse to get hurt, and I'm so damn fucking stupid to love a person that don't even bother me, and such a heartless idiot.What the fuck, I'm damn fucking hate it now. And I'm angry. Ish! Here is my blog, and it is just for me to release my hot tempered. If you think that I'm saying YOU, then please leave my blog! Don't leave some stupid commensts or scolded me anywhere. Because the person is not 100% is you!Okay, I think I really not suppose to love you that deeply, and I have to pull myself out from the deeply fucking no end well. I should.. Grab back my things. Love him, is still love him. Just thought that I could forget him by loving another him, but, okays, It makes me more hate it. You choose to not bother me, you choose to let me make myself more even colder. That is your option and you choosed me like that.Here is my end, I have to sleep now, Tomorow is my big PMR day! I hope I wun have any feeling to you and whatever stupid fucking action infront of you! Don't expect me. I'm not a normal and stupid person you think.Wasted my tears on you? Oh no, What the fuck problem I have. hah! Silly me.aLLy ChAi ♥
aLLy ChAi ♥ 10:01 AM
Your Today's Advice is " A warm smile unlocks many doors. "
Your Inspirational Quote for Today is " Be true to yourself. "
I have less than 24hours to attend my PMR! Ohgosh, I'm nervous and nervous. I'm just so scared! Arh! Just thought that, can I hug someone -.-' to reduce my fear. Daddy and mummy let me stay at home today because I told them, I'm just waste time if I go for school. Slept for fully 9hours, and I have to start my days with books! I'm alone in my house again. So now, I'm here to wish all the PMR candidates, GOOD LUCK!
GOOD LUCK for everyone, Do the best you can, and do not force yourself to archieve it. Just take it easy, I'll pray for you all!
aLLy ChAi ♥
Monday, October 5, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 4:26 PM
Your Today's Advice is : " Play harder, work smarter. "
Your Inspirational Quote for Today is : " Make Peace "
Your Lucky: "13% Lucky only"Your love : "98% not in love "
Phew. Monday again! hah. I still have 40hours to go, but I'm tired -.-' Study study and study, but there are still empty in my mind. haih. I'm nervous nervous. Oh god, I'm dead. Tonight, will be my last tuition in form3. Everybody were absent this few days, I'm wondering should I go school tomorrow. You can't even imagine how bored is it! ChongJiaEn and QuinceWong is absent tomorrow. Haihs. I'm gonna to pray, wish my PMR is fine at all. Really wish I can get a good luck wish from him.
Oh god, I miss you.
I didn't meant to kept it as secret. I will tell if he announce.
aLLy ChAi ♥
Sunday, October 4, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 12:33 PM
PMR revision really drove me to hell. I'm getting crazy, anyone can send me to 'Tanjung Rambutan'? -.-' I have to locked myself inside my room, with books! hah. Panda eye is suitable for me now, lols. I have to figure out the sejarah and geografi, kh, and science later on. BM is on hold. I dun care it, cause I dunno what I should read it. Hopefully my maths can get an A? Won't larh, so bad results. I'm gonna faint. Ish.aLLy ChAi ♥
Saturday, October 3, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 3:08 PM
Daily Advice : " Anger and depression can be overcome by love and hope. "
Inspirational Quote : " Take a Break ! "
Happy or Unhappy Today : "90% Unhappy" *wtf?*
I finally know that, quince's blog first sentences is came from facebook daily advice -.-' Lols. Happy moon cake festival to everybody! But I have to study today.. Arh! PMR is coming!! -.-' 11days more then I'm free! Everybody was keep on taking exam tips from each other. Same to me, but more or less, study all is better than base on those.. *real* tips :)
LiewHauRun, Thanks for your messages n comfort ^^ I'm better after I cried :)aLLy ChAi ♥
Friday, October 2, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 3:00 PM
哭过了，累过了，我现在该怎样呢？my gastric is getting serious. aihx. drank too much water, and cause tears drop. Larh, tired -.-' bye :)
aLLy ChAi ♥
Thursday, October 1, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 3:46 PM
Never break four things in our life - Trust, Relation, Promise, and Heart because when they break, they don't make noise but pains a lot.
- Charles Dickens-
Pains a lot. When a heart is broken, you wouldn't see it. you have no chance to see how it break into pieces, but you can break it without seeing it. You wouldn't know how pain is the feeling if you did not tried it. It is pain than beaten up, mistreatment, hurt, etc. No, you wouldn't imagine how pain is it. There are many in the world who are dying for a piece of bread, but there are many more dying for a little love.
Everybody were told me, i looked happier today than yesterday. Everybody should congratulate to me, because i had increased my skill become more better than last time. Some of them, still can figure out that what mood i have that day, instead of looking at my appearance to find for my mood last time. They will not trust I'm happy when they saw I'm smiling or laughing sometimes, because I may fake most of the times. You wouldn't know that.
When I heard your name, or saw you far far away, I'll be nervous. I do not know what is happening to me, but is happening between us. You will not know too. I swore to myself, it wouldn't happen again. I vowed to myself, that this was the end. I said I was over you, but oh I was wrong. Now here it is again, quite awhile later. And my love for you is now even greater. I spent my time to thinking of you. I love you, but there is nothing I can do.
She knew what is happening with her senses, and her senses is accurate. Do not ask me how she knew it. I'm trying to ignore what you had did and treat me, iIm tired to bother you sometimes. I realize the burden is quite heavy but I wish i can carry it, but maybe the burden do not let me carry.
p/s
you are absent today.aLLy ChAi ♥
Yesterday.
I feel so excited when you texted me, but I din realize I was smiling when I holding the phone and looking at it in hospital. Then my mum was asking me:
The old pic, I can't find any smile pic :(
I purse up my lips, let my tears run over my eyes, turning around but did not let it dropped. I don't want to drop my tears in front of you. I holding a small lock, and a key, walk towards my heart. I used the lock, to lock my bloody big hole heart, with the key. But few days later, the lock dropped and lost. The lock left a heart message to me, it wrote to me said it couldn't help me to lock my bloody big hole heart, because it is too big for the small lock, it asked me to use a bigger size lock to lock my heart. So, I used my tears to buy a bigger lock, to prevent my heartache. But few days later, the lock disappear and left a message to my heart again, it said, it couldn't help me to lock my heart, because it is getting bigger and more bloody. It left a suggestion to me, put my heart into the refrigerator, let it solidify. It says because even a bigger or biggest lock, also can't help me to lock my bloody pieces heart, but this suggestion is the most suffering suggestion, it may use my tears everyday to decrease and increase my suffer. Should I or shouldn't I keep my heart into refrigerator, using the fake smile everyday, suffering the whole day, cry every mid-night? I'm trying to make chances every time I sees you, but you are escaping every time, and at the end, I escape myself from the chances I made myself. Because my heartache is telling me that, don't even hurt yourself again, love is just an excuse to get hurt!
Okays, here is my 99th post, and I promise my 100th post will be after PMR. But this ain't a normal post, is a post that make me angry, sad, cry and bla bla bla..
Your Today's Advice is " A warm smile unlocks many doors. "
Your Today's Advice is : " Play harder, work smarter. "
PMR revision really drove me to hell. I'm getting crazy, anyone can send me to 'Tanjung Rambutan'? -.-' I have to locked myself inside my room, with books! hah. Panda eye is suitable for me now, lols. I have to figure out the sejarah and geografi, kh, and science later on. BM is on hold. I dun care it, cause I dunno what I should read it. Hopefully my maths can get an A? Won't larh, so bad results. I'm gonna faint. Ish.
