Heaven from hell, blue skies from pain. A lake still was the scene, as I sat by the edge with my instrument. The stars shone brightly above the pale, dark water. A boat with its lights off was idling in the middle of the lake, and across the way, a bonfire was burning. I played sad songs and love songs. Can someone save this lonely soul? I hope you heard me, whomever was enjoying marshmallows roasting above a campfire, or the loving couple sitting out in their boat, enjoying the warm night. I hope you could sense the love, the happiness, and the anguish that emanated from my songs. You there, in the boat, you swung by me, not 50 feet away. I played you a love song. I hope you, staring into the eyes of your lover, illuminated though you are in the darkness, leaned over to give her a passionate kiss, in the middle of the lake, with some strange, lost lady playing you a love song. I hope it gave you strength. For a second, I pretended to be you. Not even an hour has passed in this new day. It marks one month since he left. So I played a song, one we all know. I closed my eyes and sang out to him. How I wish, how I wish you were here. We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year. I sang. Running over the same old ground, What have you found? The same old fears. And for just a moment, I imagined you walking around the corner, singing sweetly to me. Wish you were here.
It's been a while, baby.I did well and I haven't been thinking about you for quite some time now. Even when I feel my loneliest during the darkest of nights, I managed to banish the thoughts of you - not with hatred but with a touch of fondness, telling myself that you simply belong to the past and that I should just get some sleep.But I miss you now, so badly because these feelings raging inside of me are not going away. These anger and rebellions fighting to unleash themselves can only be tamed by you. You, with your patient ears, strong arms and absolute acceptance... The knowledge that you love me no matter what is the magic I need to turn the world around back to its axis. Back to normal. Damn, I forgot about this one. I have been so successful in telling myself you are no longer everything to me, I don't remember that even if I am, was your princess you are, were the one who hold the key to me. And damn it that I can't even use proper grammar to write this.
I shouldn't miss him, but I can't help it, I wonder if he thinks about me. I feel so low, I'm home alone and torturing myself with love songs.
aLLy ChAi ♥
Friday, November 20, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 10:00 PM
My hair! I won't miss you first, haha. I didn't go for haircut today, since that is so waste my time, because Nat wanted to rebond her hair, again. Mama will bring me for haircut next time. : )
Dinner just now, at Taylor College. Today's dinner is perfect, well-done! Pn Siti, *I think* anyway, she is a teacher in that school, spend for us : ) LOLS.
"Ousers" were pain. Few days already -_-lll. I'm gotta faint for it : (
aLLy ChAi ♥
Thursday, November 19, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 10:44 PM
Few days no update :D Private the bloggie then cause me lazy to type. Hahah, now I'm here to update it ^^
LOLS! Babyfat Babyfat Babyfat?! Aiks, Mama said that I got babyfat on my face! -__-lll Currently just a part time worker in Mama's office, I don't know will she give salary. Zzz. But I'm online-ing most of the time, Tahaaa! That is so fucking bored this few days. I really hate holiday!
Ohmygod, I got heavier. Eating non-stop LOLS! Oh yah, I'm going to say ByeBye to my hair. Going for haircut tomorrow XD Then, dinner at Taylor's again! Hahah. Eat alot :) I still don't know what hair i want to cut. Maybe botak? LOLS.
I force myself not to think that stupid! Ish, every time after discussed about him, then he sure appear in my dream. Don't care it is good, or bad, because I don't really remember, but I'll sad after I wake up. Ewww, stupid, you are stupid lah! Zzzz..
Q, Wish you good luck, in idk -.-' in everything lah. Tell me when you free kays? XD
aLLy ChAi ♥
Monday, November 16, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 9:25 PM
I want you : )
Oh, I hurt my hand. It is bleeding right now, and it is freaking pain! Perhaps I hurt my hand while I'm bathing : ( Hidden my blog just to in case Natalie view my blog and got know that brother baked cake XD
Sister showed me her new dress, and I showed her my new dress, haha. We are choosing dresses for the New Year ; Sister birthday ; Cousin wedding dinner at 1/1/2010. I know that is quite early now to choose, but at least can know that whether I have to keep fit? or whatever XD Haihx! Getting fatter larh, Come on daddy, faster cure your surgery part and we head to the swimming pool okay? There is none of them wanted to accompany me to the swimming pool, they are LAZY! Come come faster faster, Argh!! I want to swim badly -.-'
I want to watch! ♥
aLLy ChAi ♥
aLLy ChAi ♥ 1:47 AM
I knew that wouldn't be happen. Nothing much to say. Just back to normal as last time.
Brother baked cake. Unbelievable! Everyone was dropped their specs, but the result was great XD Cake taste is nice and shape no problem, *coughs* he is not doing it alone. Brother bake cake for his girlfriend. LOLS!
Oh yah, I dreamed him again. wtf. I'm having problem larh! wtf. How can I chill myself up? wtf. Argh! Damn freaking eww you! Why can't you just let miracle happenned on me?
aLLy ChAi ♥
Sunday, November 15, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 1:48 AM
不属于我的，永远都不会是我的。
He will never be mine? Dreams is always far far away, we will always injured ourselves because we think too much. Perhaps I'll be there when you are trying to turn back. But, I guess you won't be turning back. Haihx, I'm always too much, and much of excess feeling.
Did nothing today, I just knew that, since that day, each and every dreams I got in the night, also regarding to him. Wth? I'm so weak! I can't even chase him off of my dreams. I kept on waking myself in the midnight, but when I started to dream, it is about him again! Wth.
Meet cousin in the party today, finally, she is with her lovely ^^ Congratulation : ) After 1year+, she finally got what she wanted. Although they meet problems, but they settled it together. No leaving whoever aside. That's a great love story. So why you? treated me like this? -.-
Okie, Have to head off, is freaking tired, but I don't want to dream. I don't scare to dream him but another girl? -.-'
aLLy ChAi ♥
Friday, November 13, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 9:17 PM
There is always only dreams, no miracle.
For me, you are just like cloud. You let me see you, in the upper sky. But when I try to catch you, there is nothing in my hand.
I hold you hand, and there is only air in my hand. I hug you, booosh, and you are gone, left me aside with tears. I sees you, just infront of me, I try to touch you, but I touch nothing. I try to leave you, but you found me.
I always thought, also claim that, there is no you in my heart. Yah, I told everybody, I give up you, I just want to know your things because I'm curious and I don't care. When you couple, I just feel like it is normal. Very normal, because the time make all these thing light in life. But, that is what I thought. The previous decision I made, is shaking. what the fuck, what should I say? I hate you? but I'm care about you. Eww, I hate you, you just make my life worst!
aLLy ChAi ♥
aLLy ChAi ♥ 1:03 AM
Today is a miracle, tomorrow only realize this all is a dream? Hope not, Im so nervous about the coming day. Dream, or miracle? Chance, or not?
aLLy ChAi ♥
Thursday, November 12, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 9:44 AM
I'm sick. Nothing much to say, my sister, brother, even Nat also sick -.-' Headache, dizzy, but is better than others, they have sore throat. Won't be heading to school anymore since JiaEn keep on says that she want to Ice Skate and I'm freaking hate Ice Skate because I don't even know how to handle it and I'm lazy. She says she rather stay in home also don't want to window shopping or go school. Okay lar, fine then, up to you.
Mama is freaking siao this few days, she thought that I don't want to go school because want to accompany her. Hey please larh, even if is like that, don't think that you have chance to scold me all the time okay?! Sunday, said that invite my sis and I eat breakfast, but then asked us to clean the rented room for her. I said her always bluff people with some small invites, then she scolded me "sei chao hai". WTF, don't even think that I'll forget all this, what you scolded us, we will all remember, the more you scold, the higher percentage we will leave you. Yah, for studies, for marry, also won't want to stay with you. See, sister already going to leave you, please larh, engage in introspection, you daughter is leaving you very soon, for at least 4years. If she can earn for herself livings, then she will not come back to stay with you. She even will email you to tell you what the fucking things you did to her! Why you are still so stubborn? You always thought that you are queen, but excuse me, you are not! Not everybody agree with the rubbish you says most of the time. Don't show me the rubbish face you have, I don't need, also don't like to see. Today wake me up in the super morning and told me, "I give you 5minute to clean yourself and we head to breakfast." Okay, I used 4minute to clean myself and when I ran down to downstairs, they are gone with car. WTF. I don't care you went for breakfast, or you went to office with dad, but can you please inform me? Don't let me like a stupid person rush all things and stand in the middle of the living hall, stunning there with looking at the main door and viewing the gate with no car. My every nightmare not when I sleep, I dream badly. My nightmare is always started with the time you wake me up, and each and every second with you or sees you. My honey time is when I sleep, outings, or you went out. You won't know that, there is one day, you and dad went out, the 3 of us, went to the theater room, sing very loud and playing around. Then when we heard the gate moving, all of us were feeling so badly. And we kept all the things and rush back to rooms. I some more said "Aikx, they came back already, our sweet time is end." This all things you won't be know, because you are freaking stubborn, no observation, no caring, no soul-searching, no clear-headed all the time.
aLLy ChAi ♥
Tuesday, November 10, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 6:10 PM
最深的黑暗，往往来自最光明的地方。
Piano class is passed perfectly. Teacher was hardly trust that I played Canon in D page2 smoothly. Then she teached me alot of other songs -.-' since she thought that I have plenty time to practice. Still wondering should I head to school this friday. Hmmmm...
Found the cute kid video. "I love you too but I don't like you all the time", and he is freaking cute! Can I have this kid? ><''
aLLy ChAi ♥
Monday, November 9, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 10:20 PM
The soul cannot live without love.
Went to school today for the Gardenia trip. Quite interested and they explained their product in details. Got some goodies from them. Then, headed to Nat's house to fetched her and went to PJ street for some shopping. Bought alot things since brotha wanted to make a special card + clock and bla bla bla for his girlfriend! And got wet by the stupid rain. Changed to formal dress in the car and did some make up and headed to Taylor College for dinner. Although foods not that extremely nice but still satisfied. : ) Finally back home and bath! And now, updating my blog XD
I thought I won't be seeing YY anymore, but, whahahahaha, today I saw him! Damn freaking cute. How lucky am I, the day I go school then meet him ^^ The one's make me failure in this year, no connections at all -.-' Lols.
My eye is super swollen now, I can even feels that like I just cry. I think is too tired. I had been 20hrs didn't sleep. Later afternoon still have 1hr nightmare piano lesson. wth, the teacher sure scold me for the Theory again. I'm exhausted. So now, Chao.
aLLy ChAi ♥
Saturday, November 7, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 9:22 PM
The worst way is to missing someone nearly one's side, justs like actually far in the horizon. 失去某人，最糟糕的莫过于，他近在身旁，却犹如远在天边。
Mama woke me in the effin morning. I was actually yelled at her because I'm freaking tired. Sorry mama : ( Accompanied mama went to market to bought groceries. Practiced piano and went Condo for painting.
Mama painted the door on top of me, it caused me whole body full of paint droplets. Ohmygod, even my neck and face 0.o Playing around and laugh out. Slept on the new bed there XD *curi tulang* Rush back to bathe and went to ate dinner at Jalan ChanSL for the Curry FishHead.
Waiting the last day of school, then I will go for haircut XD Still discussing what hair should I cut, hmmmmm... Waiting for Monday dinner : ) Woots, but dunno the taste will nice or not, since is dishes from students.
Fucker, Please stop chasing me and disturb me. Stop calling me! Or else I'll ask my dad to pick up and warn you. You know who I'm saying!
Now head to watch Where Got Ghost ^^ Chao~
aLLy ChAi ♥
Friday, November 6, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 9:32 AM
有阳光照耀的地方，才有影子。
Off to school Monday ! Whoooo~ Going to the Gardenia Bread Factory with dear Chong Jia En. This year second outing with her 0.o Ohnonononono, : ( YY graduated, no longer to see him anymore. Haih Haih Haih~
Morning headed to eat breakfast. Ordered porridge. Eeeyerrrrr, the pork is having the disgusting weird taste, seems like getting spoil. Ohmygod, how to eat? -_______- Evening being a piggy slept till mama finish cooking, luckily she didn't scolded me because she did it all alone with maid. And now, updating the blog and searching for stories and movie !
Argh, I'm updating rubbish. Mushrooms is growing around me, and fungus is on my body. Zzzzz.. Life bored like hell~ No outing, no studies, no life. Argh, : ( too bored lerr larr.. i wan watch movie. Oh, 2012 is coming soon. Brotha sure say wait and buy disc, but dad says he is thinking head to the cinema !
Haih, don't know what to type. Lol, ukik larh, no life now. Kays, Chao~
aLLy ChAi ♥
Thursday, November 5, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 9:31 PM
Don't cry because it is over, Smile because it happened : )
Wow.. Long time didn't update again. Recently not that hardworking on blog like last time update it non-stop. Lifeless, nothing to do. Wanted to chat, especially Erhmm, but no topic.
Currently having flu, dad's office is effin cold, I realize my lips and fingers turns slightly purple today in office. Ohmyholy, and I'm keep giggling, damn effin cold and I just keep my complain silent. Stomach pain stands for more than 1 week, what the problem my stomach wanted to do? Idiotic stomach just know how to disturb me, can't you just stop disturbing me? Ish.
Oh, I'm sad. Cousin told me the baby girl Amber having fever now : ( Haihx, Please let her cure faster. I pray for her. A lot of peoples is having sick now, good luck.
Ohnonononono, Rubbish day again. Head off now. Chao.
aLLy ChAi ♥
Monday, November 2, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 4:33 PM
Skipped best friend, then become stranger. No talks, or neither smiles?
Stomach pain like hell. I was kept on sweating and suffering because of the bloody stomach! ish. i shouldn't attend school today if I know I'll be like this, but I wanted since there are 2reasons. Chong Jia En wanted me to accompany her as she was bored and the second reason, you know I know larh. I don't even dare to move myself if I seated correct which means won't feel the pains.
Went school to accompany my dearest Chong Jia En. And you know what? She drank more than 5cups of IceLemonTea+Peach and 2packet of mango jus and a big bottle of plain water. GuoKuen, JoonGeap and I were shocked since she bought the drinks non-stop. Watched Basketball Final and Yellow Team won up expected. Congrats to Eugene, YiJia, Jack, LeonandYeongHong. Then, lepak here and there to spot him but I think he left.
Mr.Guna said I look happier, did I? Hahah, Mr.Guna agreed that SINGLE is the best after he asking me dating with anyone -__- But, my opinion is depends larh, couple maybe argue but maybe happy too, watch out coupling with who only, and is he treat you good as he could. I couple, because I want somebody to care me, love fondly, give me happiness, and shares around. But please do not play fool around me. Got my kiss, take my heart if you want but don't too late.
You hurt your leg, hope your leg was fine enough, my best friend.
aLLy ChAi ♥
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Say you're sorry
That face of an angel comes out
Just when you need it to
As I pace back and forth all this time
'Cause
I honestly believed in you
Holdin' on,
The days drag on
Stupid girl
I should've known, I should've known
That I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.
Maybe I was naïve,
Got lost in your eyes
I never really had a chance.
My mistake I didnt know to be in love
you had to fight to have the upper hand.
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings;
Now I know
I'm not a princess
This ain't a fairytale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood,
This is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down.
Now its too late for you and your White Horse,
To come around.
And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness,
Begging for me
Just like I always wanted,
But I'm so sorry
Cause Im not your princess
This aint a fairytale
Im gonna find someone, Some day
Who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world,
That was a small town
There in my rearview mirror,
Disappearing now.
And it's too late for you and your White Horse,
Now its too late for you and your White Horse
To catch me now.
Heaven from hell, blue skies from pain. A lake still was the scene, as I sat by the edge with my instrument. The stars shone brightly above the pale, dark water. A boat with its lights off was idling in the middle of the lake, and across the way, a bonfire was burning. I played sad songs and love songs. Can someone save this lonely soul? I hope you heard me, whomever was enjoying marshmallows roasting above a campfire, or the loving couple sitting out in their boat, enjoying the warm night. I hope you could sense the love, the happiness, and the anguish that emanated from my songs. You there, in the boat, you swung by me, not 50 feet away. I played you a love song. I hope you, staring into the eyes of your lover, illuminated though you are in the darkness, leaned over to give her a passionate kiss, in the middle of the lake, with some strange, lost lady playing you a love song. I hope it gave you strength. For a second, I pretended to be you. Not even an hour has passed in this new day. It marks one month since he left. So I played a song, one we all know. I closed my eyes and sang out to him. How I wish, how I wish you were here. We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year. I sang. Running over the same old ground, What have you found? The same old fears. And for just a moment, I imagined you walking around the corner, singing sweetly to me. Wish you were here.
Few days no update :D Private the bloggie then cause me lazy to type. Hahah, now I'm here to update it ^^ 
I want you : )
I want to watch! ♥
I knew that wouldn't be happen. Nothing much to say. Just back to normal as last time.
不属于我的，永远都不会是我的。
There is always only dreams, no miracle.
I'm sick. Nothing much to say, my sister, brother, even Nat also sick -.-' Headache, dizzy, but is better than others, they have sore throat. Won't be heading to school anymore since JiaEn keep on says that she want to Ice Skate and I'm freaking hate Ice Skate because I don't even know how to handle it and I'm lazy. She says she rather stay in home also don't want to window shopping or go school. Okay lar, fine then, up to you.
最深的黑暗，往往来自最光明的地方。
The soul cannot live without love.
有阳光照耀的地方，才有影子。
