Pains a lot. When a heart is broken, you wouldn't see it. you have no chance to see how it break into pieces, but you can break it without seeing it. You wouldn't know how pain is the feeling if you did not tried it. It is pain than beaten up, mistreatment, hurt, etc. No, you wouldn't imagine how pain is it. There are many in the world who are dying for a piece of bread, but there are many more dying for a little love.
Everybody were told me, i looked happier today than yesterday. Everybody should congratulate to me, because i had increased my skill become more better than last time. Some of them, still can figure out that what mood i have that day, instead of looking at my appearance to find for my mood last time. They will not trust I'm happy when they saw I'm smiling or laughing sometimes, because I may fake most of the times. You wouldn't know that.
When I heard your name, or saw you far far away, I'll be nervous. I do not know what is happening to me, but is happening between us. You will not know too. I swore to myself, it wouldn't happen again. I vowed to myself, that this was the end. I said I was over you, but oh I was wrong. Now here it is again, quite awhile later. And my love for you is now even greater. I spent my time to thinking of you. I love you, but there is nothing I can do.
She knew what is happening with her senses, and her senses is accurate. Do not ask me how she knew it. I'm trying to ignore what you had did and treat me, iIm tired to bother you sometimes. I realize the burden is quite heavy but I wish i can carry it, but maybe the burden do not let me carry.
p/s
you are absent today.
