Thursday, October 15, 2009 aLLy ChAi ♥ 7:16 PM
I purse up my lips, let my tears run over my eyes, turning around but did not let it dropped. I don't want to drop my tears in front of you. I holding a small lock, and a key, walk towards my heart. I used the lock, to lock my bloody big hole heart, with the key. But few days later, the lock dropped and lost. The lock left a heart message to me, it wrote to me said it couldn't help me to lock my bloody big hole heart, because it is too big for the small lock, it asked me to use a bigger size lock to lock my heart. So, I used my tears to buy a bigger lock, to prevent my heartache. But few days later, the lock disappear and left a message to my heart again, it said, it couldn't help me to lock my heart, because it is getting bigger and more bloody. It left a suggestion to me, put my heart into the refrigerator, let it solidify. It says because even a bigger or biggest lock, also can't help me to lock my bloody pieces heart, but this suggestion is the most suffering suggestion, it may use my tears everyday to decrease and increase my suffer. Should I or shouldn't I keep my heart into refrigerator, using the fake smile everyday, suffering the whole day, cry every mid-night? I'm trying to make chances every time I sees you, but you are escaping every time, and at the end, I escape myself from the chances I made myself. Because my heartache is telling me that, don't even hurt yourself again, love is just an excuse to get hurt!aLLy ChAi ♥
I purse up my lips, let my tears run over my eyes, turning around but did not let it dropped. I don't want to drop my tears in front of you. I holding a small lock, and a key, walk towards my heart. I used the lock, to lock my bloody big hole heart, with the key. But few days later, the lock dropped and lost. The lock left a heart message to me, it wrote to me said it couldn't help me to lock my bloody big hole heart, because it is too big for the small lock, it asked me to use a bigger size lock to lock my heart. So, I used my tears to buy a bigger lock, to prevent my heartache. But few days later, the lock disappear and left a message to my heart again, it said, it couldn't help me to lock my heart, because it is getting bigger and more bloody. It left a suggestion to me, put my heart into the refrigerator, let it solidify. It says because even a bigger or biggest lock, also can't help me to lock my bloody pieces heart, but this suggestion is the most suffering suggestion, it may use my tears everyday to decrease and increase my suffer. Should I or shouldn't I keep my heart into refrigerator, using the fake smile everyday, suffering the whole day, cry every mid-night? I'm trying to make chances every time I sees you, but you are escaping every time, and at the end, I escape myself from the chances I made myself. Because my heartache is telling me that, don't even hurt yourself again, love is just an excuse to get hurt!